THIS IS MY PRAYER

God, this my cry out to you!
There is no other that would ever listen.
Everyone tells me I should feel ashamed.
But, I am not... I live my life and make it beautiful.

Even though my past is full of tragedies,
I've learned so much in my lifetime.
I cry a little every morning.
That is why I search for your face.

I'm tired of crying myself to sleep at dawn,
For I cannot get sleep at night.
Help me!
Save me from this awful dungeon.

Nothing is clear anymore.
Sometimes I feel like I can no longer feel
The fresh air beat against my face.
I no longer notice the bright light from the stars.

But, maybe tomorrow.
Is it possible for my world to come alive again?
I want to fly and feel the clouds gently kiss my face.
I want to love.

Can I ever see nature clearly again?
Everything quits on me now.
I just want to scratch away my past.
Help me, please?

I am here trying to bring you this sweet song.
I try to count my numberless days.
Each and every one in my future is sad and lonely.
I will be alone all my days.

Except for you,
You are always with me.
AMEN

POEM

My Angel

Come to me, oh my angel!
Sing to me your sweet, sweet song.
Let me know I'll be alright.
Stay...don't go?
Keep by my side, show me I'm not alone.
I need you.
What can I say?
I wait, I wait, I wait.
Life so long goes on.
Will you reach out to me?
Will you smile at me?
Oh, how I long to see you smile.
It warms me.
The only thing that calms me.
Tell me you love me,
Tell me you care.
I need your love.
Hold me!
 

FREE VERSE POEM

MUSIC.

Everlasting peace that captures my heart.
Beauty beyond description.
It leaves me calm or makes my heart keep pounding.
Music is the only joy that thrills my imagination leaving me wanting, wanting, wanting, more.
POSSESSING.
What else can describe it?
It turns my hectic world into quiet.
Relax. Feel. Disappear.
Disappear into your own loving world of bliss.
My spirit longs to love like in a song.
I want that joy.
I want that amazing...lovely...perfect sound of music.
I hear it once again!
My heart is racing with happiness.
Oh gentle sound. Life is fullfilled!

FREE VERSE POEM

NIGHT
The Owl hoots, the Wolf Howls, the birds chirp in an Eerie fashion.
        Lurking through the sky the Moon,
          IT SHINES.
                 Stars reflecting its splendo, giving small amounts of light to those who are Hiding.
Creatures, cautious, they wander through the woods,
                not wanting Harm to find them.
The Horror they feel when Monsters catch them in the Quiet of the night.
               STALKING.
            HAUNTING.
            LONELY.
Crime spreads.
              I feel Evil searching, searching for something as prey.
The other senses come alive because sight has disappeared along with the sun.
             It is Scary to think that the Black confusion might last forever, if day doesn't come.
Deceit fills the air.
             BE CAUTIOUS!
What
     Comes

           Next?

STORY

I wrote this story today because I was bored. :)

FORGOTTEN?

Tears came rolling down here face as she wrote every feeling, every emotion, and every thought she had down in her little blue journal. Every page was marked with one tear that had dropped gently from her eyes. Years of pain and years of sorrow filled those little pieces of paper. Why she wrote them all down, she didn’t know. It’s not like she wanted to look back and remember “those” days. No one cared enough to listen to her. She was all alone in this big, lonely world.

                With so many thoughts racing through her head, she leaned over in frustration. Anger spread through her mind like a blazing fire destroying every good memory she had (and there weren’t but a few). Why does no one care? She asked herself this question daily. Maybe there is someone out there who would care. I just haven’t met that person yet, but I will. Soon. Deep down in her heart she it was all a lie. But it’s the only thing that kept her going every day, the only thing that helped her walk through those dark hallways with all eyes fixed on her.

                What made her so different? Why wouldn’t people accept her? School was like prison. People judged her. Their eyes pierced straight through her soul like a slashing dagger searching for those secrets she had locked away deep inside her heart. They had all heard about her background, about where she came from, and about her parents. It wasn’t her fault that her parents chose to live the life they did. She barely even knew her parents before they left her all alone.

                She practically lived on the streets. There were always confused glances thrown at her by the strangers who walked by seeing the black mascara stains on her face. Only a few graciously gave her enough money for her to buy one stale loaf of bread for the cheap grocery store down the block.

                Placing her little blue journal down, she slowly dozed off into an uncomfortable sleep. Her dreams were not dreams of peace but nightmares of the pain like no one could even begin to describe. They were always filled with loneliness and sorrow. Today’s wasn’t any different. There must be more to her life than this. There had to be. Or had she been forgotten?

                A few hours later, her eyes fluttered open and she wiped the dried back tears for her face. In her hands was a strange little black book that definitely wasn’t there when she had first dozed off. There was a sticky note on it that read, in this book, there are answers to all of your questions. Read it and you will understand. As she tore the sticky note off, she read those golden letters engraved in the leather binding: Holy Bible. Her life changed from that moment and soon after, her little blue journal was filled with thoughts of gratitude to that one stranger who gave her that little book and thoughts of happiness. Never again would she go back to her old way of life. She knew from then on that there was One who cared. Even though she could not see Him, she felt His presence, and knew that she was no longer forgotten. 

AMI L. 

STORY

Here is one story that I wrote around Thanksgiving and Christmas time:

HOME

               The leaves are all changing. Pine cones are scattered every which way. Red, green, and yellow reflect their colors off the pond. The sound of leaves crumpling underneath my shoes echoes through the wilderness creating a feeling of solitude. The pine trees seem to reach up and touch the endless blue sky. As I look around at the soil and the water, a feeling of sadness takes over my heart. Everything is dry, and there are no clouds in the sky (indicating that no rain will be coming anytime soon). The bitter cold shows that winter is on its way.

                My family is at home decorating the tree with lights and beads, getting ready for the Christmas season. They have set the nativity scene in its usual place on the coffee table. As I walk through the woods alone, a sense of peacefulness fills my soul. It is always good to take time to get away from the roaring sounds of the city and the constant feel of being crowded into an apartment. Oh, how I always love coming home on the weekends and feeling the warmth of my grandmother’s embrace. Joy always comes to my heart when I see the smile on my grandfather’s face as we walk through that squeaky door into the house.

                As the sun starts to slowly set in the west, I realize that it is time to make my way home. But my feet just keep moving further. I stop and admire the sweet song of the crickets for a few more minutes. How could such a small creature make such a beautiful sound? My eyes start to close as I listen to the sound I have missed for so long. The hungry growl of my stomach motivates me to start making my way home.

                The steps that lead up to the back door creak as I walk up them one by one. I open the door and the sweet smell of rolls suddenly brings a smile to my face. The family joins hands to say the blessing, and then we all sit down and begin our meal. There are so many memories about this house, and I hope there will always be more to come. 

Hope you liked it.

AMI L.

UPDATE

I am officially done with school for this year. I am definitely gonna miss my friends at this school since we are moving. But I am so happy to be out for the summer. I needed a break. :) This summer is going to be super busy! There is so much to do. We have already done a lot of packing and I am really excited about moving and the new house. Also, I am also going to be posting a lot of the stories that I write on my blog so..enjoy! AMI L.

Spring Break

Hey! Right now I am on spring break and I am loving every minute of it. We have been on break since last Friday. Right now I am at my grandparent's house spending time with them. On Friday, Daddy's gonna come pick us up and we are going to go see his parents. School is still going great (getting a little tired of it though). :) The week after school starts back I will be taking the Gateway (it is a writing test that my school requires for me to take in order to complete my grade). I have to write an essay on a topic in Chemistry one day and then an essay on a certain topic in World History.. I am so worried about it. But anyways.. I'm just gonna try not to think about school. ;) Also, Easter is coming up soon and I am pretty excited about it. We are going to be going to my papa's church in the cabin. I am so happy we are not in the city right now.. I feel so relaxed. :)

Valentine's Day

I am in such a happy mood because of Valentine's Day. <3 Even though I didn't really get any presents or anything at school, I got some of the best gifts from my family. I had so many family members tell me "Happy Valentine's Day" and I enjoyed watching my dad show his love to my mom by giving her presents this morning. One of my cousins sent me the CUTEST video wishing me a Happy Valentine's Day, and that alone brought a HUGE smile to my face. <3 I am also very happy about the 4- day weekend that we are getting this weekend. We get Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday off this week because of President's Day. All these holidays are putting me in the best mood ever. :D I am going to try to remember to make more posts more often. Oh, and by the way, I am still enjoying my new school and my new friends are just amazing.. but I still miss my old friends. We are still keeping in touch, so everything is good. <3 <3 <3 AMI L.